:D

A release.

Finally~
Everything's falling into place properly.
It's high time to get over it.
Life still goes on..
With or without.
Maybe I'll live in regrets.
Maybe I wish time can turn back.
But at least guilt din pricked me.
I'm delighted with that decision.
Let's carry on with our lives..

Wan Ping,
Thanks for your help and advises.
You are rly one good buddy!
It's difficult to find a friend like you.
I'm extremely glad I know you.
I'll be as cheerful as last time.
You'll find me back soon.
Very soon.
Don't worry ok?
:D

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9:41 PM

I'm left speechless.
I'm left speechless.
I'm left speechless.
I'm left speechless.
I'm left speechless.
I'm left speechless.

才发现笑着哭最痛

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7:22 PM

I'm heartless.

Have you ever hope that you have 2 bodies?
So that you won't get caught in the middle..
Between your heart and morale.
I wish last night,
There was another me.
One that could be at the airport to accompany my cousin..
And the other one to be with you.
But let's hop back to reality,
There's only one of me..
I'm sorry..
I chose to stay with my cousin in the end.
She's my cousin afterall..
How can I "pang seh" her?
Moreover, I've promised to always accompany her.
You know,
I know,
Keeping a promise..
It's our principle and priority..
So, how can I break mine?
What's more to my own family.
Sorry..
I can't bare to leave her in the lurch.
I'm rly sorry..
Time wasn't by our side.
I left you waiting there.
Treat it that I'm cold and heartless.

:D
11:42 AM

Backstreet Boys - Incomplete

Empty spaces
Fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you
Within me
I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess

I've tried to go on like i never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all i'm going to be is incomplete

Voices
Tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

I don't mean to drag it on,
But I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
Incomplete

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11:52 PM

A fresh new start.

I don't want to live my life in despondent anymore.
All the thoughts.
All the whys..
All the maybes..
All the perhaps.
All the frustrations.
Enough is enough.
I just want to spend my last few months in RP with them peacefully.
As I really enjoy their company.
But recently all that have happened..
Making them worried for me.
I don't wish for history to repeat itself.
Cos I know the feeling sucks.
Once is enough.
More than enough
I'm really sorry.
I'll revert back to my old self soon.
One that was strong.
One that was happy-go-lucky.
One that loves to laugh.
One that won't bother when "arrows attack me"
One that won't make friends worried.
One that won't let anything affect my mood during trngs.
One that would forgive and forget.
One that could control my temper and emotions.
Tomorrow will be a brand new day.
I promise.
:D

:D
11:43 PM

Go Forward!

Strive and not to Yield.
Keep on working hard.
You'll reap your hardwork in future.
Jiayou!
:D

:D
12:59 AM

Unintended

You could be my unintended,
Choice to live my life extended,
You could be the one I'll always love.
You could be the one who listens,
To my deepest inquisitions,
You could be the one I'll always love.

I'll be there as soon as I can,
But I'm busy mending broken,
Pieces of the life I had before.

First there was the one who challenged,
All my dreams and all my balance,
She could never be as good as you.

You could be my unintended,
Choice to live my life extended,
You should be the one I'll always love.

I'll be there as soon as I can,
But I'm busy mending broken,
Pieces of the life I had before.

I'll be there as soon as I can,
But I'm busy mending broken,
Pieces of the life I had before.
Before you.

:D
1:03 AM

How I wish..

I wanna run to a faraway place.
A place that no one can find me.
A place that I can find comfort and genuine feelings.
A place where I won't have to frequently reflect on myself at the end of the day
How I wish that all the ruin relationships,
The fakes
The backstabs.
The incomprehension
Will just fade away.
Ignoring me for good.
I'm seriously sick and tired of all these people.
It's a game that I loathe playing.
What's so nice in backstabbing people?
Just tell me?!
Does it please you to see people get angry and disgusted?
Is it really that fun?
Just tell me ?!!
If it is fun and you're conscience isn't pricking you,
Just tell me,
Labelling with 10 good reasons!
Perhaps no one understands my feelings besides myself.
Can I have a lone island for my own?

:D
11:58 PM

Dark Tuesday.

Now the sky is rainy, gloomy and grey
It seemed to depict my current feeling.
Upset, despondent, rage and a mixture of feelings.
Today's not my day.
On my way home,
It continued to pour heavily
The bus was freezing cold
I stared at the countless droplets landed on the window.
I couldn't cease dazing..
Because it was beautiful.
For once today, I felt peaceful and calm.
Soon, I fell asleep.
It was one of the nicest bus sleeps I ever had.
Out of this world.
Have you ever experienced a bad grade you don't deserve?
I've been asked how can I feel better
Seriously, I don't have the answer myself.
Experts say that crying helps
But I can't cry.
So what else can I do to make myself feel better?
Drink?
Smoke?
Dance?
Pub?
I'll stick to gym.

:D
8:41 PM

sucks!

My works are always not unrecognise.
Even when I tried my best to find research for it.
But it was "deem unfit" for the ppt.
Not only was it "unfit",
I felt invisible and non-existant
I wasn't told beforehand that my slide wasn't in the ppt
So I've left with nothing to present confidently.
Do you know how disappointing and betrayed i felt?
I guess you won't understand
Because you haven had a taste of what acid is like.
It stings and sourfies till you remember every single bit of it.
No matter how hard I try..
I just can't forget what had happened.
It lives vividly in my mind.
Fucking hate it.
I want every saddening event to vanish.
But it just can't disappear.
Why?!

:D
12:24 PM

!!!

IT'S BETTER NOT TO APOLOGISE IF YOU DO IT INSINCERELY!

ZZZZ!

:D
10:36 PM

Creative Application.

Recently, my dad's company gave him this. I name it the mouse pad cum calculator. I find it interesting and useful. This mousepad didn't come with the wireless mouse but it somehow blended with the mousepad, so I took it together. haha. Although the colour combination sucks, it is nice and convenient to use. Imagine during UT.. it can help your mouse to scroll smoothly to your destinated file and also, when you're stuck with some irritating Maths calculation and desperately in need of a calculator, it is just right infront of you..waiting for you to press it. Changi Airport is really rich to give out such a fine dual present to not only their CAAS staff but everyone working in Changi Airport. Indeed a top airport in the world :D

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6:11 PM

It leads to time.

Yesterday, Wan Ping gave me an exotic tomato muffin she had bought at Esplanade on Thursday after watching her concert. Sorry for not taking a picture of it before eating. I had the intention to but I guess all those Cardiac research like the difference between a Sudden Cardiac Arrest and a heart attack and the equipments in dealing with SCA had made me overlook it. So, let me describe it.. let's imagine a muffin with 3 layers of twirled-orange whip cream, sprinkled with colourful bits plus a small-round tomato added on top of the whip cream. It was pretty but I had to eat it to prevent it from turning moudly. It was delicious. Thanks Wan Ping! :D

This week was rather surprising yet doubtful. It is a wonder how people can end their dispute by communication..via msn. On the other hand, it leaves me the doubt to how sincere that person is. Both negative and postive thoughts are floating in my brain. The more it floats, the more confuse I get. Perhaps time and observation is the only key to unlock this mystery. Everything, time will tell.

Sometimes, I really wish to wash my hands off this and lead my journey of escapement. However, I know that escaping isn't the solution to problems and the only way is to unroot it but it's a question mark in how to unroot it. Why not you tell me what's a suitable solution in solving it? I'm really sick and tired of everything. The decision making, having to always read your mind, your unhappiness & distrust and the feeling of being left hanging on the fence. JUST TELL ME !!

:D
11:11 PM

how ?

PP is finally over..
With today's presentation as the last lap of my pp,
At last I can hieve a sigh of relief.
It is still a doubt whether I will pass my pp..
However, the comments are out already
So here are the comments..

Supervisor:
This student has thoroughly analysed the future prospect of electronic industry in Singapore, including strength, challenges etc. She also provide her own insights in this topic.

Assessor 1:
Information was well researched. Ability to analyse to a certain depth with some new insights.

Assessor 2:
Read from poster most of the time during presentation but do had some personal insight to questions asked. Good analysis done.

Damn!
I've tried my best not to rely on my poster during my presentation.
However, I still had the "read from poster most of the time during presentation" comment.
Disappointed.
But no matter what,
I still did my best.
And am glad about my performance and the hard work put in.
Thanks George for assisting in the designing of my poster!

Played bball after fyp and pp presentation.
It was quite a good match.
But I did not deliver my full potential.
Because my brain kept reminding me it's just a game..
and I cannot afford to have anymore injuries.
However,
I've hurt myself once again.
I wonder how because in my context,
I've already played a slow game.
I'm feeling so useless..
I can't do any running or exercise tmr and perhaps friday.
It's just like a bird with wings stuck in the cage.
With the ability to fly but unable to do so.
:c

:D
10:49 PM

Amazing Grace

An assuring song that will comfort me whenever I'm feeling despondent and disconsolate.
So here are the lyrics..

Amazing Grace!
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found
Was blind, but now I see.

'Twas Grace that taught my heart to fear,
And Grace my fears relieved.
How precious did that Grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils, and snares
I have already come.
'Tis Grace hath brought me safe thus far
And Grace will lead me home.

When we've been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun,
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we'd first begun.

:D
2:52 PM