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Change my heart oh God.

Change my heart oh God,
make it ever true.
Change my heart oh God,
may I be like You.

You are the potter,
I am the clay,
mold me and make me,
this is what I pray.

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1:15 AM

It's
Just
A
Matter
Of
Time.

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10:16 PM

Wrong decision leads to dire consequences

Demotivated.
I'm dumb.
I shouldn't have gone school on Thurs.
:(

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8:17 PM

Swimming: For Fitness.

Swimming can be both therapeutic and prophylactic, helping people overcome and even prevent all sorts of illness and disabilities. Part of the reason for this is that water buoyancy makes it a non-impact form of exercise, removing the stress placed on the joints and therefore opening it up to people with a wide range of conditions for whom land-based activities are problematic. It is also a sport that exercises a wide range of muscle groups, builds muscular strenght and endurance and develops self-confidence.

Duncan Newby, the national swimmer coach to Bermuda and an active swimmer himself, was diagnosed as having oesophagal cancer while still young. He was losing weight and could not swallow. Originally, he put his problems down to the fact that he was training hard for his first Master's competition. Following an endoscopy in January 1998, he was told he had cancer and had to be operated on immediately. He was given a 2% chance of survival but with the help of friends and family, he went to the most expensive cancer clinic in the world, the Memorial Sloane Kettering, New York.

The clinic told Duncan that the fact he had swimmer's lungs might give him a slim chance of survival. Throughout large courses of chemotheraphy and radiation, Duncan continued to swim. Just 3 weeks after the operation, he swam in a 1300m open water race! And a few weeks later, he swam in a 4km open water race. This was despite the fact that Duncan had lost his stomach, oesophagus and part of his diaphragm.

Duncan's cancer is now in remission and he feels he owes his life to his swimming. In the summer of 2000, he swam a 10km race in 2hrs and 55mins. He now plans to give talks in the UK about the wonders of swimming as a source of life extension and quality of life. This remarkable case of one man's determination to survive against the odds epitomises how swimming can help improve health even in the most serious cases.

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4:25 PM

Unspoken Indescribable Words.

Staring into space and stoning was once my leisure.
Cos it feels that I'm in outerspace.
Free, easy and 'light'
But recently,
It isn't a pleasure to do it anymore.
It feels like hell,
Everytime I start stoning..
I will ponder about something.
I hate it..
I don't like to be emo..
Emo is evil.
Laughter is the best medicine.
But..
I've realised that..
Sometimes..
What I want..
Will not happen.
What I wish for..
It's my wishful thinking.
What I hoped for..
It's unreachable.
Some things are better left unsaid.
Ignorance is bliss.
Silence is golden.
But I wish that..
I just wish that..
zzz..

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11:20 PM

Sucks.

Have you ever felt that being sick is secondary..
compared to other matters.
I felt sick and tired.
Not literally.
Mentally.
I loathe this feeling.
The feeling of achiness..
Yet unable to vent it out.
God,
Please grant me the ability to cry.
It feels stuffy inside.
please.
I beg you.
:(

Dear,
don't feel bad about my sickness.
I voluntarily wanted to walk in that rain..
So, it's NOT your fault.
Anyway,
It's your prescence that warms me.
I will be fine in no time.
Love you.
:D

:D
11:29 PM

How?

How?
How?
How?

I've seriously no idea..
Why..
How..
It's gone.
It's lost.
I have to search for it..
And find it.
But how to search for smth..
That isn't there all along...
Or was it there..
But it din dawned to me..
That it was there.. waiting.
All I know is that..
I need to sleep now.
Goodnight.

:D
12:37 AM

A blessed day :D

hmm..
I've been thinking..
Is speaking one's mind that bad ???
After all that have happened,
I've realised that sometimes I should refrain from speaking my mind.
If all along I should,
Then, for the past 20 years of my life,
I've been living my life wrongly.
But I'm just being true to myself and people
I've rly no idea.
hai..
Don'tkno lar..
:(

Anyway,
Today I've enjoyed myself.
Went shopping with my mom at tm.
She woke me up early in the morning at 9.45am.
Yes lar..
9.45am is considered early to me..
Especially on a Saturday morning.
Thank goodness it was a fruitful trip.
Not because I've bought alot of things..
But rather I've learnt a valuable lesson.
I realised that it is more blessed to give than to receive.
I felt happy and fortunate when treating my mom to Ya Kun.
It's the joy that flows from inside.
It's indescribable.
:)
All the while, my mom has been a generous lady.
She scrimps on herself but spends lavishly on my siblings and I.
Today,
She bought for me Nike and Converse jackets, Nike tee and sports bra.
Wanted to buy me a ring..
I declined it lar..sadly.
For she has bought me far too many things already.
After shopping,
We went Crystal Jade to eat.
Indeed their dim sum is delicious.
I love their duck noodles alot.
It's noodles and duck made from heaven.
Seriously.
lolx.
:D

:D
7:06 PM

zzz...

After today's sentosa,
My injury hurts..
It feels numb
I knew I shouldn't play vball and bball just now.
But I still did.
I sought my own pain.
This pain is self-deserved
I shall not complain anymore.

Why can't I get over it???
WHY ?!?!?!

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11:50 PM

林俊杰 - 原来

街灯绊住我眼前下一步
拉长的影子嘲弄的回顾
电话亭仍留着你的话
一句话掉一滴泪
今晚的我会是如何入睡

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹

说故事也要像是真的
可是别触动那些回忆
今夜你说了最后一句
一句话掉一滴泪
看来今晚的我很难入睡

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹

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5:39 PM

Hello, Mr holiday :)

Holidays have arrived at my door step.
I will be busy during this holiday..
Mon: Swimming and shopping
Tues: Sentosa and dinner with E45E
Wed: FYP (maybe) and K box with E44B :D
Thurs: Swimming and shopping
Friday: Swimming and shopping
Saturday: Slacking @ Sentosa ( I think) LOL !
Sunday: Church and study

Once holiday ends,
There will be 3 UTs for me the following week.
Nutrition, Med Tech and Med Equipment.
Very zz..
I need to pull my socks..
Been slacking much.
Finally,
My parents are back.
Their encounter at China was fulfilling
They took alot of photos
The pandas came out cute
I'm glad they came back safe..
Everything's back to normal.
I can have home cook food for dinner again.
And breakfast on Saturday morning.
That's my contentment.
:D

I feel helpless now..
I can't find a solution to help my friend.
And I suck at comforting ple.
What should I do??
I hope you will be strong.
Remember,
I'm just a call away.

或许命运的签只让我们遇见

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12:53 PM

Detached

Cold..
Tired..
Lethargy
Helpless..
Heart-Wrench..
Laughter..
Worried..
Relieve..
Doubts..
Hopeful..
Disappointment..
Stress.

These are my feelings for today.
Some things are difficult to express.
Difficult to pretend that I don't care.
Can't be bothered..
Isn't what I actually mean.
At times,
I want to be alone..
I don't want to affect others with my mood.
I want my friends to stay happy..
Some things I know I should detach myself from..
Some things I should not always rely on..
Some things I should refrain from.
Some things I should give freedom to..
Some things I should be more sensitive..
But it's difficult.
Very hard.
Extremely hard.
I will.
I must.
Do it.

It's 3am
I'm sleepy and lethargic..
But I've yet to do the laundry..
It's taxing..
But what can I do..
I still have to do it.
No one to help me..
It's alright..
I'll still do it.
Dad,
Please come back soon.
I miss you like hell.
yes,
It feels like hell now.

Lord,
help me, I pray..
I need your guidance and aid.
Please guide me to Your path.
A path that is righteous.
A path that I won't regret in future.
A path that is pleasing in Your eyes.
Only You alone understands me.
My thoughts, My dilemna, My everything
Only You alone knows what is right and true
When I'm blinded..
With You,
I can see..
For I know I can always rely on You.
For You've already plan my road ahead.
So please Lord,
I'm praying that You'll mend my broken heart.
A wound that only You can heal.
For only You know how much it hurts.
Teach me how to forgive ple who add salt to the infected area.
To me, it's unpardonable
But to You, it seeks forgiveness
Please heal me with Your divine touch.
Thank you, Father
Amen~

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1:08 AM